Venus Retrograde officially began on March 4th this year but it entered the shadow zone January 30th. It began hitting me hard about a week before the 4th though. Maybe it's because my ruling planet is Venus (in Taurus) or maybe it's my imagination... Either way I feel as though my life was a particular way and then in the last week I found out I live in a giant snow globe and some unseeable force shook it up and I'm still floating in the air watching life happen around me but unable to touch or interact with any of it. Is anyone else feeling this way?
Last night I decided... as I stared into the black and fought with the sheets that only grew tighter... that I would surrender to what is. For tonight I would forget the 'why' of things and remember the exquisite release of surrender to what 'is'.
Understanding the 'why' of things has its place. The 'why' can help us learn and grow and keep ourselves from experiencing regrets more than once. It can make failure palpable, even beneficial... But this is a testimony for the letting go of the 'why'. When we let go of the 'why' we can feel the sensations, the pleasures, the best of the memories that may haunt us. In the day, under the masculine power of the sun we can intellectualize but in the night, under the soft light of the moon choose to surrender to what is and what was and every sensation that brings. Feel the moments, the memories and let them wash over you and if you notice pain, let that move through you too. There is a powerful elegance in the femininity of surrender when we allow it, free from attachment. Maybe it's the upcoming Full Moon, maybe it's because it's Halloween month but I've had some vivid dreams with clear spiritual battles between perceived "good" and "evil". Last night my subconscious chose to show me people's energy by surrounding toxic people with black liquidy smoke and then I saw two women seated with gentle, almost witchy smiles and their energy was all dancing bokeh light. I made the intention right then and there I would be the person with beautiful bokeh light energy and I wouldn't let anyone take that from me, or interfere. Image Credits:
Bokeh Wallpaper: http://pcwallart.com/katie-cassidy-black-canary-wallpaper-2.html Bokeh Girl Dancing with Hearts: http://girllovesfood.com/girllovesfood/2014/7/23/bokeh-much-the-photography-trick-you-just-have-to-try-technique-how-to-girl-loves-life |
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